Love for a boy can be very scary. So I'm not letting my Walls come down.

Why do people find people and like them? Why does the heart hurt? When it's all in our head (brain). Why is their so many kinds of love? Gosh will their ever be a answer to my question? And if so is their a way to stop this madness? Well I believe I've found a way, but it might not work on everyone. You must be strong willed. So what you need to do is just stop thinking about the guy you have a crush on and tell yourself that "I don't like him" and repeat it. With willpower you can do anything. :)So that's what I'm going to do because I can not like cp. It's been such a long time and it's not right anymore. SO I'm going to get over him I believe I have. Because when I saw him this morning I was all talking to much and when he smiled I was left without a breath. But I have to get over him. And I believe I have so yes the Taylor Swift's song "Stay beautiful" is fitting. But yeah take in mind this is coming from a girl that has her wall really high up their. Their like the wall of China. I can't let my hurt again so I'm not letting them come down.

The changes of history and how it helps me grow...

So many people filled with hate in this world, but I can't find one person that I CAN truly say that "I hate them".... Even though I have a long list of people that have hurt my family and I...... I still forgive them but I will NEVER forget what harm they have caused.

Time is passing and trees's are growing...

On Thursday and Friday I only slept for an hour and a half. Then on Saturday I went asleep at two or three in the morning, and on Sunday I just went to sleep late.:O So here's the story why.... Well On Thursday I had to go to sleep late because I was painting for an English project, and on Friday I went to my very best friend's house. Jessica turned 18, wow! I can't believe it because I can remember when I was 14 and she was 14 going on 15. We were so young and we knew it there and then that we were going to become best friends forever. :) So in her 18Th birthday party I danced the night away and had a blast. Oh and ate "all I can eat sushi" happy face to that!!!!! So I believe we all had fun that day, I even thought Diego how to dance. hahhahahaha.... So yeah After that I went to the valley (on Saturday) and saw Gaby and went to Esperanza's house. :) After that we went to Magnolia's house a slept there..... I went to sleep at 2 am or 3 am and Gaby didn't sleep at all because she was talking and crying (this is the first time I ever see her cry and I have known her seens she was a 6th grader and I a 7th grader)to her boyfriend. On Sunday I went to with Gaby's family to their house and we talked a lot their, after that we got ready and just ended up going to Gaby's, dad's, family's, house..... But yeah today Monday :) We stayed at her house and I did some of my homework....... Later on the day we went to the dollar movies and saw "New Moon" (this was my second time) and "brother" which I didn't like as much maybe because it creep me out. So that's my long story which I made short.